Title: The Hollow
Music: The Hollow by A Perfect Circle
Editing: Callea

River and Jayne must feed the hunger. I was going to explain more, but I think I'll leave it open to interpretation. I will say though that the basic concept was 'sex and violence'.



( The Hollow )

Mood: awake

Here's a bunch of 24 and Kiefer Sutherland icons I made like 2 years ago and never managed to post... or finish. I didn't get much more than the cropping done on some. I'm not going to work on them anymore, but I wanted to share them with anyone who wants them.

Feel free to use any without text as bases. Please give credit for anything you use though. No hotlinking.

Teasers:


( Icons )

Mood: productive

Title: Unspoken
Author: Callea
Rating: PG13 for violence and grown-upish themes and language
Category: Drama/Angst
Warning: Not a feel-good piece

Notes: This is a follow-up to thecricket's fic Mistakes based on the bunny by jynnantonnyx28. I thought it was a great fic and a great follow-up idea.

Also, this is my first Rayne fic, so I hope you like. Unbetaed, so all mistakes are my own. Constructive criticism is greatly appreciated.

Summary: After getting kicked off Serenity for breaking River's heart, Jayne finds himself in a situation he wasn't exactly looking forward to.

( Unspoken )

Mood: calm

( Avalon Pt. 2 spoilers )

( more Avalon Pt 1 )

Yay! The final chapter has arrived. Sorry to make you all wait. It took longer than I'd expected (doesn't everything?). Hope you like it.

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"I’d invite you in, but. . . "

Chapter 12
Main Story Page
Epilogue

I went to the Stargate con on Sunday with Chris Judge, Michael Shanks, and Torri Higginson. I met some cool people, got some photo ops with CJ & MS, and got my pic taken with a Jaffa. The bad thing is that I was dense as hell and forgot my camera, so I didn't get any pics. :(

( report from CJ & MS's panel )

At the autographs, Chris had to catch a flight, so he got up and went down the line so that he would make it on time. The woman in front of me had a custom made archeologist whumping poster for Michael to sign. She said someone made it for her, and Michael got on the phone to the person who made it to ask what particular interest they had in seeing an archeologist whumped. When I got to Michael, I asked him if, since he does personal phone calls, I had a lot of people I'd like him to yell at for not coming. He asked, "A lot?" I told him a bunch of friends wouldn't come just because they didn't watch Stargate. In personalizing my autograph, he started to spell my name wrong, but was able to correct it. You can tell where it was wrong if you know about it, but that's okay. Michael looked at me to ask what else to write. My mind drew a blank, and the guy right behind me in line (well, he was in front when we started, but I just realized we ended up switching places as we were talking and moving in line) suggested he write his phone number. Michel wrote "All my <3. XO," and I got x's and o's in a little tick-tac-toe game on my autograph that I didn't get before. My new friend behind me requested that Michael not include x's or o's on his. Since he was in the Navy, he and Michael joked about it not being that kind of Navy.

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?


"Well, if you keep doing that, I might just change my mind."

Chapter 11
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"What's so crazy about it?"

Chapter 10
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"You're really soaked."

Chapter 9
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"Of course, I love him."

Chapter 8
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?


"You're more like. . . well, it'd be like kissing my brother, Daniel."

Chapter 7
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17. Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

*When did he learn to do that?*

Chapter 6
Main Story Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and
something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7
Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before
Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17.
Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake
she makes with a friend complicate the situation?


Daniel suddenly felt like the biggest fool on the planet.

Chapter 5
Story Main Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17. Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?


*It's not that difficult. Love is. . .*

Chapter 4
Story Main Page
(links go to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17. Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"Daniel, what the hell?"

Chapter 3
Story Main Page
(links take you to my site)

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17. Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?

"Daniel Jackson, I knew you were hiding something all these years."

Chapter 2
Story's Main Page
(links go to my site)

Yay! Finally, chapter 1 of my fic!

Title: Soul Searching
Author: Callea
Category: Sam/Pete & Sam/Jack (implied), Sam/Daniel (friendship and something. . .a bit more complicated)
Spoilers: Anything up to and including S8 Endgame, especially S7 Grace
Season/Sequel info: Season 8. Sometime after Endgame and before Threads
Rating: R (see content warnings)
Content Warnings: language, sexual situations (Bordering on NC-17. Don't read if you don't think you can handle it.)
Summary: Sam must decide between Pete and Jack. But will a mistake she makes with a friend complicate the situation?
Authors Note: I began this story after Endgame first aired in the US. I intended to have it completed before the second half of S8 premiere and definitely before Threads aired. That of course didn't quite happen. Obviously it doesn't match up with events that occur in Threads so consider it AU if you'd like.

A big thank you goes out to my betas rowan_d and Maureen. Without them, the story would have silly things like Sam’s inner demons getting a workout. ;) If you don’t like something, it’s probably my fault because I ignored their good advice or didn’t follow it well enough.

(links take you to my site)
Chapter 1
Story's Main Page

Mood: accomplished

To everyone on my flist: Sorry I haven't been reading your posts lately. I feel bad about it, but I've been using it to avoid real work and commitments, so I've had to stop reading for now. Maybe after I get my act together, I'll be back to reading. You can always message me if you have anything you want to say.

Now on to my babbling:
I think I've determined why I'm lacking motivation lately. I believe it's because I've always been motivated by the possiblity of what might come for me in the future. Even if something didn't directly lead to greater future possibilities, I was happy to do it, knowing that I didn't *have* to do it in the future. It was just a means to an ends. But the 'future' is here. I've gone as far as I can go with my current motivation, and now I either need a new one or to establish another possible future. Yet I can't see any on this current path that really appeal to me. But how do I know if I'll ever find one that does or even if one exists?

I'm speaking professionally/career wise on all of this. I think I've finally figured out where I want to go personally, which is creating the problem that my original professional course is now almost a polar opposite. The personal aspect is almost easy to turn around. It's simply a matter of attitude, but the professional part is harder. With electronics, computers, and programming, you have to spend a lot of time researching and working alone. That was originally what appealed to me, but now I don't want that. Or am I wrong and it's just this job that makes me work in practical isolation?

This is the problem with creating goals. Once you get there, and find out that what you've set your sights on isn't so great or even what you really wanted, where do you go from there? Everyone tells you to set goals, but nobody tells you how to choose the goals you set.

Oh yeah, and I've decided I am going to take singing lessons. I used to be pretty damned good, and singing has always made me feel good. I was thinking about it before, but now I know I want to.

Mood: restless

Hello, everyone. I'm back again - sporatically. Just having another mid-mid-life crisis after coming to the conclusion again that I'm a moron and don't know how to do anything useful well enough that anyone half-way intelligent would give me a job. So yeah, I'm thinking that I need to go back to school. But for what, I'm not sure. I think I really like doing web stuff, but I only get frustrated and irritated since don't know all that much about it, because what I learned was all on my own. None of my programming classes had anything to do with web programming languages, and I really didn't pay enough attention in them to get something out of them. I learned enough to get an A then let most of it fly out the window. Basically, I suck. (And this isn't one of those things where I'm looking for people to tell me I don't, I know I really do suck.)

So, I have to decide whether I just want to take a few classes, work toward another bachelor's, an associate's, or get a master's. I like the idea of having a master's, and it'll probably benefit me most in the long run. But it'll probably be more expensive, and I don't think I know enough yet to make it in a computer science master's program. Also, after the total slack-fest that was my college, I don't think I'm prepare to make it in a real school yet, much less something that's supposed to be as difficult as a master's program. Argh... What to do, what to do...

I really wish I hadn't chosen that expensive-ass college or the equally expensive and equally assish (yeah, it's a word) college I went to for animation. I should have just went to junior college until I knew what I actually wanted to do instead of wasting 50 grand. I thought people who did that were losers, but it turns out I'm the freakin loser. *sigh* Nothing to do now but try and fix it by spending more money and working at this crappy job to pay for it. I guess it could be worse.

Mood: crappy